"I don't think I am wrong here. Do you?"
"Maybe you're right. Maybe I am scared, and he's patient. But, so what? So what if I am not ready to give my life away to someone I am not sure I'm in love with? I am an adult, and I can take as long as I need to be ready for something that big."
"What happened to 'don't put much stock in it'? Where did that go?"
"That is just sex, T. That's not forever. Sex isn't forever. Marriage, that's a lifetime of work and compromise, needs meeting, and maybe kids. I don't want that yet. I've spent my whole life being a mother, and I don't really want to be one anymore."
"Oh, well, I'm sorry I am such a burden, Callie. I'll just run away and make it easier for you."
"That's not what I meant. Kid, you're the most important person to me on this planet. I love you like you were my own kid, but I don't want to go adding my physical children to the load. I need to be independent. I need to just live my life, for me, without having to worry about school schedules and fucking college planning. I don't want to deal with diapers and children's futures for a while. Not until I am good and ready. That's just not now."

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